Don't ever change who you are, be willing to bend and forgive but your roots are planted and once you come to accept that you can then begin to appreciate your strength and beauty. For me I'm stubborn as a mule but after 22 years I realize I'm stubborn because I'm sensitive. I wear my heart on my sleve and to protect it I get defensive and I've been known to shut down. This isn't the person I want to be, I'm appreciating and respecting my sensitivity.. It's who I am and even if I could change that about myself (which I've wanted to) I shouldn't.. and I won't. The people in your life, the good ones, the ones who are meant to stay. They will understand you, they see your roots and they won't want to change you. Instead you'll find people who water your roots and admire your strength and beauty, and remind you should you ever forget.
My mother planted a seed and watched me grow, she's seen me torn down and bare but she's also seen me stretch for the sun and she's admired my colors. My mother's known my roots, because she planned them, watered them and loved them. But she gave me the freedom and space to discover them myself. And that's an amazing gift, to slowly find out who you are and what you stand for.
There are people in my life who have torn down branches or made me forget my roots but that's okay I didn't need those beaches and sometimes we forget. But in the end, I remembered. Those people are going through a journey themselves to find their roots and maybe they had a few branches taken off themselves so forgive them.
I'd like to think I've found people in this world who are going to let me stand tall and strong in a storm and offer them protection and shelter when they need. Trust that I'll never break and take a nap under the shade I provide. But in the winter when my leaves have fallen and I'm no longer radiant those same people will come and love me no different. Because that's who I am. I'm still discovering my roots, they are long and secure but every day I discover a little more about what makes me happy or sad or what I believe is wrong or right. And one day my roots will cross paths with somebody else and we'll decide to grow together and you can't un-grow or retreat, you can only grow more and when all the space is taken you can only grow deeper.
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