I consider myself a planner, an organizer, a plan a head kinda girl. I like to sit down an organize my time and schedule things, it relaxes me and makes me feel more in control. I say that we should all live in the moment and appreciate what we have now and not be concerned with what we may or may not have in the future but that may not be who I am. I need to know when things are happening and I feel comfortable planning accordingly. I don't really enjoy doing things last second or having plans changed on me, but I know it happens and I fully know that I often do it to other people... but it's my plan I'm most concerned about.
Do you know what planners don't like? Inconclusive people, people with no plan, last second decision making people. When it comes to my planning I am much more willing to put things like feeling aside for the sake of the schedule. If you don't want to hang out this weekend thats fine but the sooner I know the sooner I can 'plan' accordingly. I don't like waiting around, I like fast and immediate responses. The people who wait around for the sake of not wanting to upset you or they are unsure of what they may or may not do.. they are my plan ruiners. I also get excited and gitty about my plans. If I deliver an idea for something and the response isn't a direct reflection of what I am feeling, its a tiny failure to me and the plan isn't even worth going through with. Now these are petty things, I realize that. I catch myself making plans and getting upset when I get a response that's wavering, mostly because I fully know what the end result is going to be and parts of me want to cancel the plans and make it easier on all parties since I am unsatisfied with the reaction or immediate 'I'm all in' or 'wow i'd love to' response. But I don't, I bite my tongue and more often than not I am right. The plans fall through or it's not the right time or the window of opportunity is missed. But then there are time when you throw out an idea and it sits on the table and when you think its about time for the cards to be thrown in, your plan goes through and your surprised. Or even better when you are the plan maker, the decision maker, events coordinator and when you least expect it somebody makes plans for you. Makes plans that include you. For all the planning and thinking and masterminding that you do, and to think that there is somebody who is willing to do the same and wants to experience their plans and wonders with you.. thats a wonderful feeling. Thats a feeling you can't plan on, it happens and when it does you have to be grateful for it. Appreciate it. Take it all in.
